"And now I'm dealing with it," he counters, quiet but stubborn.

"I don't. Have any illusions about Nirai-zho is like. But I need not to be obsessing over - over wording, over provenance, over context, whether I can trust any given scrap of information or whether I've reconstructed the history correctly or guessed my own thinking right from the outside. I could stall there forever and tear myself apart while I'm at it. I have to just know."