"Jedao, hey, Jedao --" Holden scrambles to his feet. He has no idea what to say, or how to make this better, and he's not so sure that it wouldn't just be better to let Jedao get out of here.
Ah, god damn it.
"I just want to help!" This is basically a yell, frustration pouring out. "But I can't do this shit! I can't watch you getting tortured like it's a memory puzzle, I can't keep you safe, I can't even save one --"
He should have found this earlier. He should have... gone about it differently? He shouldn't have assumed that the repeated conversations were some kind of game, he should have realized, he shouldn't have been fooled, and, damn it, these are all familiar thoughts, and he's right back on Ganymede, hunting down something already too out of control to stop.
He doesn't look at Jedao. He turns to go to the door, to just leave Jedao to it. There's not room in there for two broken people, and Jedao was there first.
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"Jedao, hey, Jedao --" Holden scrambles to his feet. He has no idea what to say, or how to make this better, and he's not so sure that it wouldn't just be better to let Jedao get out of here.
Ah, god damn it.
"I just want to help!" This is basically a yell, frustration pouring out. "But I can't do this shit! I can't watch you getting tortured like it's a memory puzzle, I can't keep you safe, I can't even save one --"
He should have found this earlier. He should have... gone about it differently? He shouldn't have assumed that the repeated conversations were some kind of game, he should have realized, he shouldn't have been fooled, and, damn it, these are all familiar thoughts, and he's right back on Ganymede, hunting down something already too out of control to stop.
He doesn't look at Jedao. He turns to go to the door, to just leave Jedao to it. There's not room in there for two broken people, and Jedao was there first.