[He's quiet for a few breaths.]

What healing means, what it has always meant. In the very best case. Is being remade as thoroughly as necessary to be put back into service.

If she tries to work on me, I will claw my own eyes out to get away. Either she'll hold me down with her brain for my own good or she won't.

[Bitterly; he hates that he isn't sure.]

Either way, I don't think you'll get what you want.